bruises - aftermath

So the last 10 days were quite intense. I had for everyone visible marks for the first time, something I wasn't very well prepared for, my make up skills really do need a bit of a freshening up I suppose. I had a black eye, bruised chin, marks on my jaw line on the left and some lighter but still visible marks on my right side of my face.

For a change I won't be going into detail of the play, all I can say is that he truly fucked me up and I loved it. I was crying my heart out, still sobbing and crying minutes afterwards. I wasn't expecting to be so intensely marked though, that was kinda unexpected and really fucked with my head.

I like to say that I would repeat this at some point, maybe not tomorrow and maybe not exactly the same way, but I enjoyed it.

I had a hard time afterwards, I never dropped so badly from play and I never had to pretend for days and days to come that everything is normal. I wasn't able to cover the eye or chin with make up and I knew I have to be in work on Monday, it was freaking me out, I can't go to work like that I thought, well I can't call in sick either, sigh, I went to buy some other make up, concealer, foundation, powder, end result was ok but nowhere near perfect and I was really worried.

Getting into work on Monday was really demanding some big portion of self-control and backbone and I wasn't sure if I can answer if anyone asks me what had happened, a few hours in and no one had asked, I started to feel a bit better, they obviously noticed, but weren't thinking abuse or anything and left me to it. The following day was easier, still nerve wrecking and straining, but better and so I slowly felt better too.

I managed to get through the week and I'm really proud I did. I had plenty of support from my playmate during that time and from some of my closest friends and I like to say thank you to all of you who were supportive, you really helped me through this.

So aftermath, this was the hottest thing to date, I loved the bruises, the shades the feel of them as much as I loved the way I got them, it just was the right thing to happen, weird isn't it.

Anyway, the marks are nearly gone, some light shades of yellow is all that is left, they say it takes ten days for bruises to go, suppose it's right.

PS: I promise I will never bring warm Stella home ever again ;)