Rubber Wednesday

It's Wednesday 10am and I currently have all the rubber laid out on my bed. I am putting my outfit together for later. P is coming over for our first rubber playdate. We only met very recently and I'm pretty excited about meeting someone who understands the rubber/latex fetish the way I do.
After a little bit of thinking and moving items around on the bed I decide on my outfit and put away everything else I won't need. Now to carry on with my preparations. I still have plenty of time till 1pm, but I like to take my time and make sure I have everything ready. And most importantly, that I'm feeling ready. Rubber is probably the most high maintenance play of all, starting up to two days in advance with exfoliating and shaving. You can't shave on the day, rubber and freshly shaved skin don't like each other much; then some more exfoliating, it's better for your rubber as well as for your skin. On the day I do my usual play-preps.
I'm a huge fan of anal play, so I give myself a nice proper clean with the enema kit. It enhances the sensations, there's no mess and it leaves me more relaxed for play.
Another part of my preparation is deciding on what toys to get out. I settle for a variation of butt plugs, the Hitachi with attachment, inflatable dildo, cuffs and spreader bar, a rubber hood which only has a mouth opening and my S10, which was modified for more controlled breath play. Breath play excites me, a lot.
Then finally, light, scent, music. It all works together.

I start to get dressed about 45mins before P arrives. This part is as exciting as the play. The slow transformation into this rubber play thing, object, doll, fucktoy, you chose; we all feel different about it, depending on the situation and the response we get, but one thing is always the same, it's pure sex. It is beautiful. Rubber enhances your looks, the feel, and your skin transforms into this perfect shiny finish, flawless.
I start with my see-through tights, I put some dressing aid around my ankles and they slide on nicely. Then the white long sleeve high neck top, it's skin tight, thick latex, made to measure and fits like a 2nd skin. I add my white pencil skirt topped by my black underbust corset. Finishing the look with a pair of black and white plateau shoes with 5 1/2 inch heels. Now only my hood and gloves are missing. I will not put them on just yet.

A few minutes before 1pm my phone starts ringing. he is downstairs. I throw him my keys so I don't need to climb two flights of stairs to let him in. Wow, my heart is beating now, I hope he likes what I chose. I asked before the play date what he likes and he said he likes surprises. He opens the door and comes in, his smile and eyes tell me he likes what he sees. Instantly I feel a bit calmer.
He has brought a nice chilled bottle of wine and we sit down for a relaxing chat and a glass of white to take the edge off before he goes to change into his catsuit. I think we can both tell that we're a bit nervous and excited. I am definitely nervous now. After a while he gets up and goes to my bedroom to change.
I stay on the couch with my glass of wine, listening to the sounds of him dressing in his latex. I love the sound that rubber makes when you dress. I can't explain it well, but any Rubberist will know what I mean. I just sit there, close my eyes and listen. A wave of arousal rushes through my body.

He re-enters the living room and I get even more excited. I love latex and he looks really, really good in it. I ask him politely to get me my hood and my gloves. Covering up completely usually gets me into a really intense head space, it's the total transformation. I am now really nervous. Putting my hood on, zipping it up, the black and white rubber pigtails are falling down on my shoulders, it's a cool, soothing sensation. I add my gloves and that's it. Fully enclosed in latex. It's a weird feeling, I have never been with anyone except for my best friend when totally enclosed in latex and now I'm sitting here with P and for a moment I don't really know what to say or do. We have another sip of wine and then get up. Standing in the middle of my living room, he starts running his hands all over my latex clad body. I close me eyes and relax into the sensation, let him kiss me, caress me. His hands brush over my nipples and I gasp, it all feels so much more intense through the layer of latex. I feel a bit light-headed and could easily fall into my submissive mindset, but for some reason I don't.
We move to my bedroom and I am now glad I put some thought into the play as I will be topping, my first time in full rubber, he's very cute about it being my space and that I should be in charge for this first time.
Surprisingly, it works for me, my head isn't all fuzzy and subby and I'm actually excited that I do get to have my way with him for the next hour or so, I don't pay attention to time, it's not really important apart from the moments when I count the seconds whilst depriving him of oxygen, that is the only time it counts, but on to that part later.
I rid myself of my skirt and my shoes, as pretty as they are, they won't be much use now, the see-through leggings have a zip in the crotch, my corset and top are comfortable too, so the rest of my outfit stays on.

I ask him to lie down on the bed, in the middle, flat on his back and check if he's comfortable. Looking at him lying there I take a moment before I get my wrist and ankle cuffs and the spreader bar. I climb on top of him, feeling his cock pressing against his catsuit as I lower myself onto his crotch. I slowly put the wrist cuffs on, first the right then the left and clip them overhead onto my bed frame. I then add the ankle cuffs and attach them to the bar, his legs straight and in a comfortable position. I take a moment to look at him. Next is the hood, it only has a mouth opening, no eyes. I gently zip it up, making sure I won't catch his hair.
I hold in again for a second, admiring the look of my now shiny toy in front of me. I run my hands over his body; first light, then with some more pressure, feeling his muscles under the shiny black latex. My hands stroke over his crotch and I can feel his hard cock responding to my touch.
My hands go exploring for the zip of his catsuit, I undo it just enough to access his arse and expose his cock. I grab one of the thin latex gloves and using some lube I let my index finger slowly explore, caressing his cock and balls with my other hand, I can feel he is relaxing into my touch. Choosing the rubber hood makes things a lot harder for me, the missing eye contact means I have to entirely rely on reading his reactions and body language, but I think sensation-wise the hood is adding a lot to his pleasure and I want him to enjoy what I am doing with him.
I remove the glove to get my hands free to play with his cock. My mouth around his tip, slowly running my tongue down his shaft, then taking him deep. The rubber hood is making it harder for me to open my mouth nice and wide, but I enjoy the restriction, and I enjoy sucking his cock for a little while. I then focus my attention again on his butt. I get a fresh glove and gently work my way up to two fingers before moving on to my medium sized butt plug. I gently play with the plug, penetrate him, till I'm able to push it completely in. I then zip up his catsuit so only his cock is exposed, with one hand I am pushing and caressing the plug through the rubber, gently changing pressure, with the other I am playing with his hard cock. I carry on like this for a moment, hoping he enjoys it as much as I do. I entirely rely on my instincts and what I would enjoy being done to me, if I would be lying there right now.
Finally I move towards my Hitachi. I unzip the suit again so I get access to the butt plug. I remove this one and let him know that the next is attached to a vibrator, as he can't see what I'm doing and I don't want to startle him. I always wanted to have a go on a boy with my magic wand, this will be new. I still hope I will get some feedback on how it felt for him. Ultimately, I want to be able to make him come just from prostate stimulation, but as I don't know him very well, I don't expect anything from today. The Hitachi can be very intense and I don't want to push the levels of stimulation up to getting uncomfortable. I play with him for a little while and then move on to what else I have in mind for him today.
I slowly remove the hood, shielding his eyes. It is all too bright at first after a certain time in darkness, his eyes need a moment to adjust.
I give him a second and then present him with my gas mask. He smiles and nods. The words 'good boy' flash through my head and I smile. There is not a lot of verbal communication, I like it that way. I am now really excited and look forward to fucking him whilst being in control of his breathing.

The gas mask goes on and I tighten the straps around his head, making sure it sits comfortably but secure.
My hands stroke over the mask, gently, like I would be touching his face. I can see his eyes now, this is a welcome change. I like a bit of eye contact during breath play, it makes it all the more intense.

My hand is caressing his body and slowly moving to his cock. He is still hard and I can now feel my excitement too. My clit responds with a light throbbing sensation. I unzip my tights and touch myself. My pussy is wet and warm, I think it is time to fuck him now. I get a condom and pull it over his hard cock before I slowly lower myself onto him. I gasp with pleasure, feeling him slowly slide deep inside me. I love this first moment of penetration, nerve endings respond, my cunt tightening around him. I lean back a bit to feel him even deeper, and then I start to fuck him. My hands run over his upper body and towards the mask. One hand gently rests on his right cheek, the other covers up the only entrance/exit for fresh air. I silently count, holding my own breath, holding eye contact with him, slowly moving towards the rush you get when you can't breathe. I remove my hand and he takes a deep breath. I don't hesitate and cover up the air supply again, all he's got is the one breath of fresh air. His cock is now responding to my little game, I can feel him getting harder. I push him a bit further this time and his reactions are just wonderful. He is pushing his cock towards me, fucking me now. Trying to breathe, struggling in his restraints, his eyes locked with mine. One more second, two, I let him breathe.
I want to feel him up my arse so badly now, I think it's time for a small change. My tights open up just about enough to allow anal penetration. I get some lube and slowly push myself down on him. This feels so good. I carry on using his cock for my pleasure, slowly riding him, play with the gas mask and his air supply and make myself come again and again with his cock deep up my arse. The mask comes off eventually, one of the straps loosened during play, that's fine. It will stay off.
I unclip the wrist cuffs and then turn around to do the same to his ankles, I think it's time for a small change in roles now. A fresh condom and I get him to fuck me doggy style, nice, deep, hard thrusts, his hands grab me by my waist and he pulls me towards him. He fucks me and I'm high on the adrenaline of the play, the smell of rubber and the feel of him deep inside me. I completely loose my feeling for time. He comes hard. Exhausted we collapse on the bed. And then there's the real urge to get out of the rubber. I think we're both really hot and sweaty. It's time for a nice hot shower now.


All in all this was a brilliant first, I hope for a repeat sometime soon, maybe with him on top this time and naked after care cuddles included ;).

PS
(I like to say that this was extremely hard for me to write. When I sub, lots of things go through my head. I perceive the whole play a lot differently, writing about this with me being Top was difficult. I didn't want it to sound clinical but there's a lot more actual thinking and doing going on, as if you're on the receiving end. I wanted to capture this in my blog, as it was a first for me, a couple of firsts actually, and I truly enjoyed the experience. I felt nervous and excited about playing with someone new. Someone who seems to have the same passion for the material as I do. It was amazing and I hope there will be some repeats.)

Fucktoy Tuesday? WTF! ;)

ok ok, I got myself into this allllll by myself again, haha, I'm not complaining :D!

still owing him a blow job I couldn't resist but started to stroke his cock, hoping he'll just grab my head and push it under the duvet and guess what, he did! God, it's hot under the duvet, totally added to the feeling used feeling. I got to suck his gorgeous cock for a little while but was then thrown over and held down to be fucked hard from behind, his hands pushing me down into the pillow with all his weight, holding me there in place, fucking me. I like the violent approach and the you're just a fucktoy treatment, thinking of being used and abused really turns me on. Rather harsh instructions follow, ass out, face down! I open my legs even wider and move towards his hard thrusts, wanting to feel him even deeper. His deep thrusts pushing me into the pillows, I love being fucked like that.

He then let go of me and turns me around on my back, everything happens really fast, as he sits on my chest and pushes his hard cock deep down my throat I think he'll probably face fuck me, which is really hot, but he just pushes his cock deep in and holds it there, cutting of air, making me struggle and gag violently, he allows me a few breaths and pushes his cock back in, repeating the same thing a couple more times, I look up at him, my eyes pleading him to let go of me, but he seems not to care, reducing me to a sobbing, pathetic mess he let's finally go and I try to catch my breath.

Not giving me long to recover he's back to fuck me again, legs wide spread, my muscles ache, his hands first over my mouth and nose then move on to strangulation, oh god I'm scared of this, it's hot, frighteningly hot! Feeling his strong hands holding tight around my neck, his cock entering my cunt with hard deep thrusts, he's fucking me whilst slowly cutting off the air flow, my head feels hot, I feel my heartbeat in my ears, I start to struggle, the grip of his hands is tight and painful, I struggle harder, trying to get away, terrified of passing out, of this unknown feeling of losing all control, he finally let go of my throat. I take a few deep breaths but his hands are already back around it and squeeze.
I lose count of how often he repeats this, but as I thought it couldn't get any scarier he pushes the pillow into my face, this is terrifying. there is no eye contact possible, something which kinda makes me feel still safe sometimes. First I can still breathe, restricted, it's not easy but still works, but he then pulls left and right of the pillow down to the mattress level, the fabric feels really hard all stretched and pulled down, my face totally enclosed by it, I am getting really off in this now, I can tell as I'm getting really really wet. I keep struggling though, trying to lift the pillow up on a site to get some air and it works, sort of, till I get caught out. He then tells me to put my hands on his ass and pull him in and have him fuck me real deep. I feel used, he's still suffocating me, I start to think all sort of things, will he make me pass out? does he care? is he getting off on this? I'm scared, I need to breathe, I need some air, now! I'm begging now, desperate and he finally let go of the pillow and let me take a few deep breaths. Now lying next to me he pushes my head towards his cock and demands me to make him come. My efforts are pathetic, I'm shaking, I can't breathe properly because of being a sobbing mess earlier, I actually want to cry. My at this stage best efforts are lousy and not at all satisfying, I can tell, getting told off for taking a break to catch my breath I wish I would have more energy to do a better job. He then confirms what I already knew, this is not good enough, too slow, I feel rubbish.

He tells me to go on my knees, hold on to the bed frame with both hands and to not let go of it, to open my legs wide and push my ass out. I'm all shaky, actually I feel broken. I'm simply obeying now, I have no energy any more not to. His cock enters my cunt again, and he fucks me, his thumb entering my ass I think I will just have to take this now, what ever will happen, he withdraws his cock and spits on my ass hole, degrading but oh so hot, oh so scary, the thought of his big cock up my tight ass, half an hour ago I may still had the energy to argue or pull away, now though I just hoped he's not going to tear me apart. I'm shaking, my muscles, my throat, everything is aching. I feel his hands remove mine from the frame, first one then the other and moving my legs together making me lie down flat on my tummy, his body resting now on mine, I'm breathing heavily, trying to recover, to calm down, shaking uncontrollably. A few minutes in and I start to relax. That's what happens when you play with my cock, he says. Silly girl, I reply. You're already not sorry any more you did though, he is right, I'm not, it was fucking hot! Maybe I even want to pass out next time I get used and played with.

I am addicted to fear?

Mxx

Heavy rubber

So yes, the focus is still on rubber!

I really enjoy this, I enjoy other things but this is something very intense and special. I am a proper rubber perv I think, hehe.

Right, we had a playdate arranged, heavy rubber themed, that's all I knew, I wasn't aware of what is going to happen and when, just that I will of course bring latex and cover up completely.

I arrived and whilst having a relaxing pint of bitter started to get dressed, leggings, socks, long sleeve top, long gloves, corset, skirt, but I forgot the shoes, which wasn't too much of a drama. Later I found out that he wasn't very happy with my choice of putting on a skirt, lol, but he quickly got rid of it again as it was in the way.

Everything was set up, bondage bench, st. andrews cross, medical chair, fucking machine, sybian, but for some funny reason I thought, ah well, some will be just out to intimidate me a bit, he's surely not using ALL of it in one play session!? I can be really naive sometimes!

After I was completely dressed and felt ok and relaxed the hood came on and I was now completely covered , he turned me around towards the mirror, I looked at the pretty rubber doll and thought, gosh this is just so hot! I love the way the latex transforms me. I feel like a total different person. He started with some strokes and relaxing hugs and then put a gas mask on which made me relax even more, I now have to admit before we are getting confused that this happened a while back, I think end of November and I will most likely get it mixed up a bit, but nevertheless I like to write it down, as I haven't at the time.

So here were we, still standing, doing some very light breath play, relaxing into the situation, accepting the fact I'm out of control now and just let things happen and enjoy them. The skirt came then of as it was in the way and he placed me on the medical chair, rubber straps were applied to hold me in place, around the legs and the waist, immobile there wasn't much resistance from my side as the zip on my leggings was opened slowly, exposing my clit, piercing and cunt, I could feel how aroused I was, upper body strapped tight to the chair, I was not able to look what he's doing, or having in his hands, the gas mask limiting my sight extremely. I focused on my breathing and his touch getting more and more excited. I never really thought very highly about e-stimulation, as he inserted the little bullet into my cunt I wasn't entirely sure what it is until after a few moments I could feel my muscles starting to respond to the stimulation, first very light, nearly unnoticed, then stronger and stronger, to the point where I thought it almost feels unpleasant but soon the rhythm in which the little shocks got sent changed and changed again, sending me on a very interesting journey, I thought at that point how it might feel to have the same up my bum, secretly hoping it might get placed there later, the other half of me not wanting this to happen, I'm a little bit mixed up sometimes.

I can't remember in detail any more what happened on the chair, but he moved me after a while towards the bondage bench, stuck me into the inflatable heavy rubber sleeping back, e-stim bullet still in my cunt, nicely zipped up so it stayed in place, magic wand between my legs and zipped the sleeping bag up and inflated the whole thing, this just feels amazing, being tightly enclosed in all the latexy goodness I felt myself drifting off further and further.....I think I got a bit uneasy as the magic wand heated up, it feels much hotter than it actually is, oh well, i think i was in that position for quite a while, floaty and totally obedient as I now felt he got me out of the sleeping bag, placed me on my knees on top of the bondage bench and fucked me for a little while with his rubber cock pants, this is just awesome by the way, trousers with moulded rubber cocks, yummy! after some hard thrusts he turned me around and made me go down on my knees, having me worship and suck his rubbered up cock for a while before he then pulled me back up on my feet and put a new, heavier hood on me, this one had an attachable blindfold and only a small hole over the mouth to breath through. moving me towards the sybian and placing me on top of it, making sure the insertable goes in the right place, he then strapped up my legs and arms, making sure i can't support my weight with anything other than sitting still on top of the sybian. this is a very evil machine! he left me on there for a while, setting quite high, no idea if it was the highest but it's just too much stimulation to be good, hehe. I started to focus on my breathing, trying to ignore the almost painful stimulation from the sybian as he decided to exchange the hood to one of the re-breather latex hoods with the see-through bit on the front. this is seriously fucked up breath play, I loved it. I was scared, proper scared as it's nearly impossible to breath and get the little tiny hole which is in the wide bit to hit your mouth when it sucks close to your face....after a couple of minutes and heavy uncontrolled breathing followed and accompanied by silly attempts to get out of the situation and seriously feeling like I am going to faint or even die, I was seriously terrified! he removed the hood and allowed me the so much desired  deep breaths of fresh air, I instantly started giggling uncontrollably, totally high on adrenaline now. Wow, that was sooooo hot! I didn't come, the sybian just over-stimulates so much, I was unable to.....releasing the restraints and helping me off the sybian I kind of felt like this was now it, but I was terribly wrong. we only moved on to the St. Andrews cross, which was lying on top of the cage in a 45 degrees angle, tight to it secure so it couldn't slide down and I was tied to it securely, legs wide spread giving open access to my already wet cunt, a little pillow supporting my head i was now once again at his mercy.

I'm not entirely sure any more but I think the inflatable hood was then put on, this one has a breathing tube and that got attached to a re-breather bag I think, more breath play, heaven for the already high and floaty me! The fucking machine then got put in place, god this is really good, it just does not stop, steady it goes, penetrating me cunt with nice steady thrusts, the re-breathing getting me slowly light-headed and I could feel how I was slowly moving on towards a nice climax, reaching orgasm just at the point where I felt like I'm going to faint, no more oxygen left and fighting in my restraints, only wanting to breathe! Absolutely amazing! those are definitely the best orgasms on earth ( so far ;) I just loved it.

After recovering a little bit I had a nice hot shower and wrapped up in a towel and blanket some toast and tea. Perfect rubber play date, indeed!

Looking forward to more with big anticipation.

Mxx