Rubber, my biggest love and downfall

It's all in the title. I guess this will always be the one thing I have no idea what will happen, how far I will go, will I get to a point where I think 'hold on, this is too much' or will I always feel like there could be more somewhere. Hidden.
Recent encounters, old and new, in real life and online have only done one thing, and I'm not sure if I like it.
Realizing what rubber means to me has to be the biggest step I made so far in my journey of finding the real me. Knowing I relate it to a strong D/s context is frightening and reassuring.
Getting these thoughts out of my head may help to sort out my mind a bit and benefit the clear thinking.
One thing I know I need to do for sure is think less, do more.
In other words, to myself:
Take your own advice more often, Love. Me.

doing the right thing?

Feeling rather silly now about what I said last night, but thinking about it, it is the way things seems to be. It might have been better to not say anything, no, hold on, that would be silly. I've always been honest and always will be and if someone can't deal with that then it should probably just not be.

I suppose not everyone deals with things that way, people keep their thoughts to themselves rather than talking about it openly, but that makes relationships between individuals so special, if you feel like you can talk about anything and say anything and it will be 'not the wrong thing to do' but just right. I don't ever want to feel like I can not just say how I feel or have the feeling that I will have to keep things to myself because they won't be met  by approval.

So yes, whether or not it will be met with approval, I did the right thing; voicing my concern. There's not much more I can do really, just wait and see what reaction I will get.

Mxx